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oh, and one last thing, while I'm on this angry tangent. Why do people assume that if they tell me to cut, I'll do it? I KNOW people don't care if I mutilate or not. And I don't really care anymore. It's one of my many coping mechanisms, but it's MINE. I decide when, where, and how. I am the one who decides how i bleed. I just laugh when people say shit like that, trying to piss me off by telling me to cut. Okay, fine, I'm sure I'll get around to it, when I fucking feel like it. I don't care if you don't care because I don't care about you.
"cut cut cut"-Lance

"your blood is wine to me"-Chris

"silence"-mostly everyone else in my life
"::sounds of cutting::"-the numerous other people in my life who cut


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Mar. 16th, 2004 09:36 pm (UTC)
I'm sure you know who this is (I love you), no it's not your mom or anybody like that. I have been finding more and more that I appreciate that I cut myself because I think that otherwise I would be dead. Everyone is afraid of blood (well, maybe not the super jaded) but I'm afraid of it even though I think it's so beautiful, and people are just afraid of what it means. Even though it's violent, cutting is not always violent. Blood doesn't mean death, in some cultures it symbolizes life (the female menstration) and it doesn't always mean that you have to be happy (again with the menstration.) so, I hope that even though you don't need permission, I want you to be happy in any way possible. Love you!
Mar. 22nd, 2004 02:03 pm (UTC)
Ha! I was being facetious. To think that I'd assume you to cut because of any comment of mine is ridiculous. The fact that it indicates your considering doing so is amazing. I hope therapy goes well. Self-mutilation of any form is not a healthy coping mechanism.

And to the other anonymous post, you suck.

ps - I AM A HUMAN!
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